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READ THE FIRST TWO CHAPTERS: Beyond the Shore and Shadows




A Merrow with a Choice

A Man Who Loved Her

And an Evil that could destroy them both

The Sea Is Calling...


Lena is a merrow in possession of the Magiske Skal—the shell once owned by the Queen of the merrows. And now, Lord Jarl knows her secret and wants it for himself.


After running away from the Lundby-Wyatt Inn, leaving behind everything she was familiar with, Lena finds herself in the company of the warm and kind Soren Emil.


When the villagers turn against her and Soren, they’re forced to leave the burning Bror Boghandel behind and escape to a forgotten cottage on the edge of the shore, where no one will find them. Lena knows she must get the shell back to the sea and destroy it, before it falls into the hands of Lord Jarl—or worse, his apprentice, Jace Wyatt.


With the help of some unruly pirates, Lena and Soren journey to a place Lena never thought she’d return: the sea. There, she will have to face not only the Sea King’s army, the Fosse-Søfolk, but the impossible choice to sacrifice her own life, or the life of the man she loves.


What will Lena choose?



Dive deep into the Skagerrak Sea alongside Lena in this anticipated sequel, BEYOND THE SHORE AND SHADOWS by Chantal Gadoury—out next Tuesday, May eleventh. Pre-order your copy NOW!





 

CHAPTER ONE


“TELL ME EVERYTHING, LENA. TELL ME EVERYTHING…”


Soren Emil’s words echoed through Lena’s mind as she lay in the still darkness of night. Curled under several quilts on Soren’s soft, small bed, Lena tried to close her eyes. Even as she tucked her legs closer to her chest and slid her face further into the nearby pillow, there was nothing she could do to wipe the memory of Edwin’s face from her mind as the light left his eyes. Beneath her eyelids, she could still see Lord Jarl holding the pillow against Edwin’s face; his body desperately twisting for air as he grappled at his attacker. Her throat tightened as her heart ached for the loss of her friend. Edwin had come to mean so much to her, and he’d died because of her. His death was on her hands.


Lena moved her hand to her chest, where her fingers met the coolness of the conch shell tied on a small strand of kelp around her neck: the magiske skal. A single tear rolled down her cheek as she remembered Edwin—Edwin with his kind smile and his gentle touch as he would reach for her hand. Edwin, who had accepted her, knew her secret, and yet did what he could to protect her. He’d been her friend—her first friend. The makeshift ‘home’ that had been created in the Lundby-Wyatt Inn was gone. Her chest swelled, and a small whimper rose from her throat as she shifted under the blankets in the darkness.


From across the room, she heard Soren’s voice break the silence. “Lena?” His voice was soft and full of concern. She could imagine why he was concerned. Lena had run here as fast as her unsteady legs could carry her in the middle of the night, only then to wake him up.


Lena shifted on the small bed, pulling the blankets around her more tightly as she hoped he would call for her again. Squeezing her eyes shut, she tried to feign sleep. She didn’t know how late the hour was, but surely the sun would be rising soon. Soren would need to run the Bror Boghandel for the village. He needed his sleep.


She heard him shift under his own pile of blankets, until his feet pressed onto the creaking floorboards. As he crossed the room to her, she gave up and slowly rose onto her elbow. Her violet eyes scanned over his shadowed figure, seeing that he was dressed in only his trousers and an open, white pullover shirt. His hair was disheveled from his pillow.


“Can’t sleep either?” he asked gently as he sat down on the edge of the bed. Shaking her head, she tugged one of the spare blankets around her tightly as Soren slid his hand to rest against one of her legs.


“Would you like some tea?”


In the short time that Lena had come to know Soren, he seemingly found tea to be a comforting resource. She bobbed her chin upwards, nodding slightly. “Yes, please.”


Soren rose from the bed and crossed back to the fireplace. Lena studied him as he crouched and slid a selection of small logs onto the lingering red coals. Placing his kettle over the heat, they waited. She felt foolish for having woken him up. They both had been up for much of the night already. Even from behind, Soren appeared tired; his silhouette highlighted his slumped shoulders and tousled hair. Lena noticed his slow and careful movements as he tended to make their tea. She tried to hold off the tears that threatened to well in her eyes as she fought the anxiety tying knots in her stomach.


Turning slowly, he slid his gaze to her. Lena could see the lines of concern cross his brow. There was a moment of silence between them before Soren sighed.


“You’re safe here, Lena,” Soren began. Shaking her head, Lena lowered her chin, darting her gaze away from his.


“Lord Jarl…” Lena murmured, breaking the silence after a moment.


“I promise you,” Soren continued. While she feared Lord Jarl finding her at the Bror Boghandel, she feared more of what Soren Emil thought of her; of what he thought of her story of being a merrow. She had done exactly as he had asked her mere hours ago.


“Tell me everything, Lena. Tell me everything…”


Lena had not spared a single detail in her journey of coming to the shore. She spoke of what happened to her brother Javelin, as he had been killed in her attempt of going to the surface. She described her transformation from merrow to human in all that she could recall from the pain she experienced. She couldn’t help but look at the quilt that now covered her legs. Her knees and feet made the blanket stick up in places. It felt like she had been back in the sea with her fins just yesterday, yet it also felt like an eternity ago. Part of her longed to have her fins back.


This is what you wanted. Lena had to remind herself. Everything that had happened—her brother’s death, leaving the sea, even Edwin’s death—it all had been her fault, and it happened because she had wanted to see the surface. Something that merrows were forbidden to do.


Lena remembered the twinge of sadness that tightened in her chest as she told of how Jace Wyatt had found her on the sandy shore and had carried her back to his family inn after figuring out she didn’t know how to use her new legs. A few tears rolled down her cheeks as she finally described what had happened to Edwin; what Lord Jarl had done to him, and that Jarl was now after her.


“I believe you,” he’d said reassuringly when silence fell between them. He reached for her hand and brushed over the curve of her palm with his thumb. He hadn’t asked the questions she’d expected to hear. Perhaps he knew it hadn’t been the time.


Now, from across the room, Lena wondered if he had changed his mind. In the few hours that had passed, did he still find himself believing her and her story?


What would it mean if he no longer trusted her? Would she be forced to flee from him as well? Where would she go? The Fosse-Søfolk would never let her return to the sea. If she was forced to flee from Soren, Lena only feared what that could possibly mean for her.


The sound of water being poured into the teacups pulled Lena from her thoughts. She watched as Soren lowered the kettle into the dying embers once more before lifting the porcelain cups. Crossing the room, he offered her a blue chipped cup and sat down beside her again with his own. Gently blowing a steady stream of cool air on the beverage, he peeked a glance at her.


Lena didn’t know what to do in this strange, new silence. She felt tense and afraid, despite his easy disposition. She held the cup between her trembling fingers, before glancing at him.


“Soren?”


He lifted his gaze from his tea, meeting her eyes. His green eyes were filled with such gentleness. “Hmm?”


“D—do you still believe me?”


“Do you doubt that I do?” Soren raised a brow, watching her intently. “Do you think your story is so unbelievable?”


“Don’t you?”


Soren set his cup down on the floor with a sigh. As he adjusted himself, she nervously held her breath.


His green gaze raked over her figure. “I don’t find it so unbelievable, no. If there is one thing that I have learned in my years of knowing Edwin, it is that anything is possible. In knowing the truth of my mother…what she was, I suppose it was only a matter of time I would find myself face to face with a merrow as well.”


Lena allowed his words to settle between them before she continued, pressing her fingers against the glass in her hands.


“What do you suppose will happen to me now? With Edwin…” His death. “Surely Jace…Mrs. Wyatt…” Would they think the worst of her? Would they imagine that it was she who had harmed him?


“You’re afraid of them coming to look for you?” he filled in, raising a brow. Lena nodded. Soren pursed his lips before slowly nodding in understanding. “I imagine Mrs. Wyatt will worry about your whereabouts. It will only be a matter of time until Jace Wyatt comes looking for you,” he agreed.


“Lord Jarl as well,” she added in a whisper. His words echoed in her ears as she remembered his mouth raking over the scratch on her arm. Her violet gaze moved to look at her pierced skin.


“Little pearl…you can’t run away from me…your blood sings to me now. Now that I’ve had a taste of you…”


“I won’t let him within a foot of the Bror Boghandel,” Soren affirmed and shook his head.


“Won’t the villagers talk if they see me here? What will they say about—”


“I’m not worried about what the villagers say about me,” Soren snorted. “It’s nothing that I’m not already used to.”


“I just wouldn’t want my presence to be a hindrance to the Bror Boghandel. And to you…”


He shook his head again, his eyes looking down into his tea as he let out a soft sigh. “Your presence will never be a hindrance, Lena.”


She wanted to believe him—she wanted his words to be true. But how could she believe anything she is told, especially after Jace betrayed her? Lena sank back into the pillows, pulling her knees up to her chest as she took a small sip of the hot tea. The warmth began to spread throughout her body, filling her with some comfort.


“If you are truly worried about the reputation of the Bror Boghandel,” he bemused, “I could always say that I have hired you.”


“A girl who cannot read?” she reminded him.


“Which will be remedied with time,” he added gently as he lifted his cup back into his hands to sip upon. “No one need know you cannot read.”


Lena bit her bottom lip, building the courage to ask the lingering question in her mind. “What of Mrs. Wyatt?”


Soren nodded slowly. “Yes, we must think of Mrs. Wyatt,” Soren replied as he lowered his empty teacup to the floor. “She has lost Jace and now Edwin. The loss of you will be hard to miss. I’m sure she’ll ask about your whereabouts to anyone in the village.”


“Don’t you think she’ll come to you?”


Soren reached for her teacup and placed hers beside his on the floor as he nodded.


“I’m sure she will. However, I think it would be better if you keep your distance from the Lundby-Wyatt Inn. Lord Jarl has killed Edwin. He is now after you; remaining hidden and staying away from the inn is likely in your best interest, Lena.” Soren spoke gently.


“To stay here, in your back rooms?” she asked, her eyes growing wide. Lena had never stayed in such a small space for a long period of time. She had always had so much space under the sea. There had always been so much wide, open space. Even at the inn…there were several rooms she had access to and was able to explore. But here…hiding in the back room of Soren’s little home—how long would she be able to withstand being confined as such?


“If need be,” he replied. “If only for a short amount of time.”


As Soren looked to her, she found herself nodding in a silent reply. He was offering her shelter; an unspoken invitation to stay. He was willing to protect her—hide her from Lord Jarl, and the village. It would be strange, to be forced to stay inside, unable to go to the sea as freely as she wished.


“Lord Jarl will no doubt come after you for the shell he desires,” Soren muttered. “I can only imagine that would involve sending Jace after you as well. If you remain unseen by the villagers…”


“He said my blood sings to him,” she interjected, biting her lip. “Lord Jarl must have some way of knowing where I am,” she reminded him, tucking herself deeper into the blanket around her shoulders.


“Perhaps,” he said with a shrug. “They can’t know for certain until they come to the Bror Boghandel themselves.”


A jolt of fear twisted in her stomach as she imagined what Soren was suggesting. Lord Jarl, perhaps even Jace coming here—if only to find and kill her. Lord Jarl had already killed Edwin to get to her…what about Soren? Her heart pounded in her chest as scenarios whirled through her mind. “What if he does come? What if Jace comes to the shop tomorrow?”


“Do you fear that I would turn you out?”


His gaze locked on hers. Lena pondered his question for a moment. Was it that she feared Soren would hand her over to Jace, or was it the fear of Jace leaving Soren no choice?


“Edwin Wyatt sent you to me,” Soren murmured. “He told you that the Bror Boghandel and I would provide you safety, yes?”


“Yes,” she said quietly.


“If Jace comes through my doors, then I’ll do my best to treat him as I would any customer,” he reassured softly, “but I would cease my hospitality if I deemed it necessary. I will do what I can to protect you.”


Lena wondered what exactly would cause Soren to close his doors to Jace. Would it be a simple threat? Would it come at the demand of Soren handing her over to him? With a shiver, she pushed the thought from her mind. She hoped she’d never have to find out.


“Cold?”


“A little,” she whispered. Soren pushed himself to his feet and crossed the room. In a large chest, where earlier he had gathered blankets to make his own bed on the floor, he grabbed another quilt and moved back to her. Lena watched him drape the blanket over her legs.


Soren studied her closely; his emerald eyes searching her face.


“I believe you have been through something remarkable, Lena,” he murmured. “Something that perhaps not very many would believe. To have lost your home beneath the sea…your brother, and your father. To have come to this strange land… and to be facing what you are…” He trailed off.


Her eyes felt heavy with unshed tears as she lifted her violet gaze to meet his eyes.


“I will do what I can to keep you safe,” he said softly, extending his hand out to grasp hers. “I promise.”


Lena shivered at the memory of Lord Jarl’s tongue gliding over her pierced, bleeding skin. Her stomach knotted. Lena knew Soren Emil would not be able to protect her against him, no matter how determined he might be. It was the magiske skal he wanted…and he would stop at nothing to possess it.


Soren tilted his chin toward the bed, gesturing with his hand for her to lay back down. “Come now, we should get some sleep.”


Lena nodded silently as he lifted the cups from the floor and meandered back to the table, leaving them to clean later. As Lena laid back into the softness of the bed, she watched as he crossed to the fireplace. He moved one more log onto the warm coals; the small flicker of flames erupting immediately around the wood.


Tugging the blankets around her tightly, Lena did what she could to keep the cold fear from washing over her. She silently stared at Soren until he turned and knelt to the floor, pulling himself back into his own make-shift bed.


He turned away to sleep, leaving Lena to fight off the nightmare of Lord Jarl alone


 

CHAPTER TWO


HER MORTAL LEGS ACHED AS SHE RACED DOWN THE STAIRS OF the inn. The wooden boards creaked underneath the soles of her feet. She reached desperately for the banister. Her heart wildly racing, she glanced over her shoulder. Lord Jarl’s silhouette lingered just behind her; a long, dark shadow, reaching out to grab her. No matter how quickly she moved, the stairs seemed never to end. A whimper emerged !om her lips, but she willed herself to keep going. Lord Jarl’s voice echoed behind her as she stumbled down the final set of steps.


“I will find you, my little pearl,” he snarled. Upon turning to look at him again, she could see her blood dribbling down the corner of his mouth to his chin. The inn was still all around her, despite his chase of her. The only sound echoing !om the darkened rooms, was the hard rain hitting against the glass windows.


She had to escape. She had to get away from him before it was too late. Throwing the door open, Lena chanced a final look behind her. Lord Jarl was a breath away—his cold fingers coiled around her forearm like a snake. He squeezed tightly, pulling her closer to his lips.


“Your merrow blood sings so sweetly to me,” he cooed. “I will always find you, little pearl.” Lena screamed and tried to pull her arm back. Suddenly, another arm snaked around her waist, startling her and cutting off her cry. Slowly turning her tear-filled eyes to glance over her shoulder, she was met by Soren’s hardened face, also with a stream of dribbling blood from the corner of his mouth. He smiled, cold and stern, before leaning forward toward her, mouth widening.

***

Lena awoke to the sound of a door shutting.


Jerking upright, Lena darted her gaze around the room. Her heart was pounding in her chest; the dream had been so vivid. She found Soren standing by the closed door; he seemed almost to grimace as their gazes locked. Lowering a few cloth bags, he released a sigh.


“I apologize,” he said softly as he slowly straightened. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”


“It’s alright,” she replied breathlessly. Lifting a hand to her forehead, she swept a bead of sweat from her brow.


Her hands trembled, though she tried to calm herself. The nightmare she’d had felt too real. She couldn’t forget the look on Lord Jarl’s face; the way he reached for her; the hunger in his eyes. Even more, she couldn’t stop seeing the image of Soren’s gaze locked with hers. He’d wanted to harm her. He’d wanted her for her merrow blood. A shiver trailed down the length of her spine; she tried to calm her wildly beating heart, to no avail.


“I went to market this morning,” Soren explained as he turned back toward his bags and gathered a few of them to bring to her. He rounded the side of the bed, took a seat, and offered one of them to her. “I found this for you,” he explained. Lena stared at the dark brown cloth bag hesitantly, before arching her brow.


“What is it?”


“I suppose you’ll have to take a look,” he said amusedly, lowering it onto her lap. Lena drew open the folds to reveal a folded dark blue skirt. The color reminded her of the sea on a stormy night. The waist of the skirt was adorned with large cloth buttons roughly the size of coins. Turning the fabric in her hands, Lena found thinner strands of material finished at the back; enough to tie into a neat bow to keep the skirt from falling. Beneath the blue skirt was a starch white blouse, with rounded sleeves that appeared to billow at the wrists.


Lena lifted her curious gaze to him, tilting her head.


“You came only in your night dress,” he explained, sliding a hand over the back of his neck. “I didn’t feel it was proper to allow you to go through the day at the shop, without appropriate attire. Your ankles and such…” A small smirk grew on his lips.


“That was…kind of you,” she murmured. Inside the folds of the skirt, were a pair of off-white leggings, resembling the sort of trousers a man would wear. Wrinkling her nose, Lena studied the clothing curiously, unsure of what to make of them.


“It might be a little big,” he added. “It was all the tailors had available. Everything else is made with personalized measurements and I…” Lena could see a small hint of pink growing on his cheeks as he finished, “I didn’t know them.”


“Thank you,” she said with a reassuring nod, pushing the dress back into the cloth bag.


“You can dress in the bathing room,” he said, gesturing to the other side of the room. “I’ll keep my back turned.”


Lena bit her lip nervously and pushed herself up from the bed, doing as he suggested. In the corner stood a small partition, and beyond it, a small wooden tub. It was much different from what the Wyatts had in their inn, there were no knobs to turn to access water. How did he fill his bath when he wished to take one?


Pulling the strange-looking trousers from the folds of the skirt, Lena slid her legs into the pants and pulled them up around the waist of her nightdress. Were they to go on first? Wrinkling her nose, she pushed them down and tossed them to the side, feeling a little uncertain of the new attire he had obtained for her. Glancing over her shoulder to be sure she was shielded from Soren’s view; she slid her nightgown away from her body. The cool air brushed over the tips of her fingers and breasts, sending a slight shiver down her back. She felt too exposed, open to Soren’s gaze if he so chose to go back on his word of keeping his back turned. She knew Soren was a good man, but that didn’t stop the anxiety from swimming through her like a wave as she recalled her frightening nightmare; the way he’d gazed at her with the same gleam of desire as Lord Jarl. The desire to drink her blood.


Reaching for the fabric beside her, a spark of pain shot through Lena’s arm from the sudden movement. Turning her arm, she discovered markings on her skin, red and bruised from Lord Jarl’s assault.


She could still feel the warm graze of Lord Jarl’s tongue gliding over the bloodied wound on her arm; could still feel his fingers digging into her skin. “Run!” he had taunted, after Edwin had tried to urge her to leave. “Your merrow blood is singing to me.”


“Lena?” Soren’s voice startled her, drawing her away from the terrifying memory. “Are you alright?”


“Yes!” she replied quickly, tugging the blouse quickly over her head. With careful fingers, Lena swiftly pulled the blue skirt up around her waist and tightened the ties in the back the way Mrs. Wyatt had shown her.


“Do you need, uh…any assistance?” Soren asked, clearing his throat.


“No, no…” Lena managed, folding her nightgown and pushing the unused leggings back into the cloth bag. She emerged from behind the partition, sliding her fingers over the smooth blue fabric that now draped itself around her lower half.


“You can look now,” she said, releasing a small sigh. Soren turned, almost hesitantly, before his emerald gaze met hers. There was such kindness and concern lingering in his eyes as he stared at her.


“You look…lovely,” he replied with a small grin of approval brushing his lips.


Lena felt her cheeks begin to warm from the sound of his laugh and she wasn’t quite sure how to react. She rarely received compliments and reacting to them was still something she was learning.


Soren tucked his arms behind his back, his smile growing. “It suits you. Truly.”


“Thank you for your generosity.”


“Think nothing of it,” Soren remarked. “Now, let’s have our morning meal. I found quite a few things I thought you might like to try.”


He turned his attention to where he’d left the forgotten bags on the floor. Hoisting them up to the table, he began to pull what he had gathered from the market to place on display for her.


“Do you go to the market often?” Lena asked, glancing at the bag by his side.


Soren flashed a grin as he chuckled and nodded. “Of course. Though, I normally tend to only buy what I need. Would you like to see what I brought back?”


Lena gave him a small nod before crossing the room to stand beside the table.


“Sweet bread,” he said, lifting a large, round roll of bread from the bag. Laced between the dough layers looked to be a strange brown frosting. Lena lifted it to her nose to sniff and smiled with surprised delight.


“It smells sweet.”


“That’s because it is,” he said with a chuckle, reaching into the bag again. “As well, I brought us eggs…”


Soren lifted a small white oval for her to see. As he continued to place the items in front of her, Lena admired the unspoken excitement etched in his features.


“Grapes,” he continued as he lifted with another hand a small carton of purple circles. “An orange…” The sweet smelling ball made Lena curious. She lifted it gingerly from the table up to her nose.


“I know it’s not much. I thought I’d save the rest for our evening meal.”


Lena smiled, turning her attention back to the orange in her hand. She tried to bite into the fruit and a bitter, tangy taste filled her mouth. Wrinkling her nose, she slid it back to the table. The acrid taste reminded her of the time Javelin had brought a new, strange food home once from the market. Javelin had pulled from his bag small, pink round balls with tiny spikes all around them. He’d pierced it open with his dagger, tugging a small white, round pulp from the inside. Despite the beauty of the color of the strange food, the taste left little to be desired.


“No, no…” Soren explained with a chuckle as he reached for the fruit. “Like this.” Carefully, his fingers began to pull the orange skin away from the rest of the fruit. “You don’t eat the peel…”


“The peel?” she asked, wrinkling her nose. Soren lifted his gaze, meeting hers warmly.


“You really are from the sea, aren’t you?” Lena bit her bottom lip, nodding carefully. After a moment, Soren lifted the peel to her nose.


“Some people keep the peel to make their homes smell nice, or to start a fire, but I tend to just throw it away.” Lena carefully took the piece from his hand and continued to hold it to her nose. The sweet scent filled her with a strange comfort.


“It smells wondrous.”


“Do you like it?” he asked with a smile. “If you’d like, we could leave the peel out, to fill the room with the scent.”


“I’d like that,” she agreed, tucking her hair behind her ear. Lena eagerly continued to watch him pull the fruit into smaller pieces.


“Here,” he said, offering her a slice of the orange. Taking it, Lena slid the piece onto her tongue. The sweet, tangy flavor filled her mouth, and her eyes grew wide with wonderment. Chewing, Lena tried to savor each morsel.


“Do you like it?” Soren asked, watching her with amusement; the corner of his lips turned in a smile. “You can have more, Lena.”


He offered her more of the peeled pieces, taking only one for himself.


Lena eagerly devoured the rest of the fruit quickly, humming in pleasure at the last bite.


“So, you enjoy oranges,” Soren murmured as he began to boil the white eggs in a pot over the red coals in the hearth. Lena licked her fingertips, her cheeks beginning to warm.


“I’ve never had anything like it.”


“They’re rare, but delicious,” he agreed. “I used to only get them as a gift at Yule from my father.”


Lena looked at him inquisitively. “Yule?”


Soren meandered back to the table and lifted his brow. “Truly? Your people don’t celebrate Yule, Lena?”


“I don’t think so,” she replied, shaking her head. She had never heard the word until now…she doubted it was celebrated beyond the shore.


“Hmm,” Soren murmured. “That’s a shame.”


“What do you do at Yule?” Lena asked, tilting her head, curiously. Soren shrugged before lifting a small glass jar, filled with something that appeared to be deep red berries.


“Perhaps some toast with jam would go well with our meal,” Soren suggested with a raised brow. Lena nodded quickly as her stomach growled with hunger.


“Well…” Soren chuckled and began to slice through several pieces of the sweet bread on the table. “Yule is usually spent with family and friends. Usually there’s an exchange of gifts, a feast with delicious foods, and singing merry songs. For many, it’s a happy evening of dancing and drinking and…being with those you love.”


Soren carefully moved back to the hearth with the sliced bread.


“If my father had a bout of luck,” Soren continued, “we’d have a roast goose for dinner, and Edwin would generously bring us potatoes and bread from the inn.”


The room quickly began to fill with the most delicious scent of toasted bread as he removed them from the fire.


“Edwin was so good to you,” Lena replied.


Soren nodded thoughtfully before releasing a sigh. “He was good to everyone.”


When Soren finally handed Lena a piece of toasted bread slathered with a red berry jam, she couldn’t help but stare at it in awe. Of course, Mrs. Wyatt had dazzled her with the strange food she had served at the inn, but there was something so comforting and simple and bright about the piece of toast that Lena was about to indulge in.


“I’m glad to see you’re hungry,” Soren said, watching her eat the toast fervently. She could feel her cheeks begin to warm, and she slowly moved the toast away from her lips.


“It’s…delicious.”


“It is delicious,” Soren agreed, lifting his own toast to his lips and taking a bite. Lena watched him with curious delight; watched the way his jaw tightened and relaxed as he chewed. He was one of the most fascinating men she’d ever met, short of her own brother. She watched the way his curious eyes flickered from his plate and then back to her. She took another bite of her own, feeling a sudden peace fill her. Perhaps, eventually, everything would be alright.


“Lena?” Soren broke the silence, drawing her gaze away from the warmed bread in her hands. He pointed to the corner of his mouth with a laugh. “You have some jam, just here.”


She quickly darted her hand, brushing the back of her hand against her lips just as Soren chuckled.


“Here.”


Slowly, he leaned across the table, brushing his thumb where the dab of jam was smeared. Their gazes met; the soft, warm tips of his fingers swept across the corner of her lips. Her heart began to pound in her chest as she stared up at him. He was a beautiful man; she’d had that thought more than once already. Each time her gaze met his, she found herself completely captivated by him. By his kindness…


“Th-thank you,” Lena responded, cheeks glowing. Soren pulled his hand away and carefully, eased back into his seat, clearing his throat. He drew his attention to a small, round contraption he’d pulled from his pocket and grazed a hand through his disheveled hair.


“The eggs should be finished,” he murmured as he stumbled from his seat, toward the pot, hovering over the red coals of the fire. Pulling it from the heat, he carefully dropped the two eggs into a small bowl.


“These should cool before we eat them,” he explained. “I need to go open the Bror Boghandel.”


Soren crossed the distance of the room, pulling open the room’s door, revealing the quiet bookshop on the other side in a hurried jumble. Lena eased a finger over the place where the jam had been on her face. The warmth of his touch still vibrated through her. Had he been just as affected as she’d been from the simple touch?


Peering from the room, she watched Soren move along the hall, opening the front door to the village street. Sunlight filled the space, illuminating all of the bookshelves. She watched the way he trailed his fingers along the spines of the books when he walked by them; the way he leaned from the doorway, just enough to glance along the village road. As he turned on his heel, Lena scurried back to her seat, lifting the white egg from the bowl. It was hot to the touch, but Lena could not resist her own curiosity. “I think it would be best for me to go to the inn today,” Soren said as he reappeared at the door. “To offer my condolences to Mrs. Wyatt. Edwin’s passing should be well known to the village by now…”


Lena shifted her gaze away from the egg in her hand and looked up at him. A part of her yearned to go with him, to see Mrs. Wyatt, to go back to the familiar place that she’d come to call her home. Yet she knew the place she had learned to love and call home was gone. What would Mrs. Wyatt say? How could she explain what had happened to Edwin? How was she to explain why she had fled? She wanted to warn Mrs. Wyatt of Lord Jarl and the danger Jace was in.


As if reading her thoughts, Soren took a step toward her and shook his head.


“I think it’s best for now that you wait here. I think it might be…too much for you.”


“Too much?”


“To see Edwin,” he explained. “Mrs. Wyatt would have had the doctor come by the inn by now. He’ll be laid out and…I don’t believe it would be the way he’d wish for you to remember…”


The memory of the night before came flooding back; Lord Jarl’s twisted, cruel face as he smothered Edwin.


“I can endure it,” she replied, shaking her head. “I saw my brother—”


I can’t endure it,” Soren admitted softly. “I don’t want you to have more of these painful memories.”


Silence filled the room as they stared at one another. Soren swallowed before turning his gaze to the floor. “I will go for now. We’ll go together when the time is right.”


“It’s my fault,” she whispered, lifting her hand to clutch the shell around her neck.


“If all that Edwin has told me about my own past is true…he knew the dangers of what knowledge he held,” Soren said gently.


Lena could feel her throat tighten; she resisted her own tears springing to life behind her violet eyes. Soren crossed the room to the table, until he came to kneel beside her. Taking the egg from her hand, he placed it back into the bowl, and gently took her hands in his. Lena released a sigh as Soren brushed his thumb over the tops of her fingers.


“None of this is your fault, Lena,” Soren began. “You must remove that thought entirely from your mind.”


“It is. All of it. All the choices that I’ve made have led to this moment.”


“Indeed, all the choices you’ve made have led you to being here, in my home with me. Just as all of my own choices led me to be here with you. And while our decisions can affect those around us, it is up to the person to choose the path before them. Lena, you did not make your brother go to the surface. He chose to go. Edwin did not have to protect you; he chose to. That was his decision. Just as this is mine.”


Lena couldn’t bring herself to look at him. She knew, deep in her heart, he spoke words of truth. She knew he was right. Slowly, Soren rose to his feet and released her hands.


“Wait here a moment.”


Without another word, Soren turned and moved past the door, back into the shop.


Moments later, he returned with two small books in his hands.


“Perhaps let’s distract ourselves with a reading lesson?” He opened one of the books in front of her, sliding his finger down along the crevice of the book.


“While I’m gone, I want you to look over the alphabet. All of these letters come together to form different words.”


Lena leaned over the table curiously, glancing at the open page of the book he pointed to. The markings on the parchment seemed foreign and strange to her. Wrinkling her nose, Lena turned her to Soren and shrugged. “Perhaps it’s not so simple…”


“Not right away,” he replied with a smile. “With time, it will become easier. See here, we’ll begin with the letter A.” Soren moved his index finger to the shape of the letter and repeated it again.


“Now you try,” he encouraged with a nod. Lena repeated the sound over and over again, mimicking his movements over the page with the tip of her finger.


“Yes, good, Lena. Now B…”


Soren’s lesson of the alphabet continued well into the late morning until he finally pulled away from the table with a stretch of his arms. Pulling himself from his chair, he rose to his feet and moved toward the hearth.


It was surprising to Lena to notice that the Bror Boghandel hadn’t been visited by a single one of the villagers all morning.


“Is it normally this quiet?”


“Mostly. I’ll have a day or two when sailors come by to sell their shipping logs.”


He slid another piece of wood onto the glowing embers. “In truth, Edwin was my most frequent customer.”


A stark silence fell between the two of them. The memory of Edwin’s demise flashed through her mind again. It was all she could do to ignore the wicked echo of Lord Jarl’s voice in her ears. Edwin…was simply gone. Lena felt as though she’d drown in the pain that filled her chest in the loss of him. Whether Edwin knew the significance of the information he held or not, Lena being at the inn had only put them in danger.


She turned her eyes to the floor, willing the shame to go away.


“Will you be alright if I leave for the inn for a bit?” he asked, turning his gaze to her. “It wouldn’t appear…right”—he paused; his voice strained by emotion— “for me to not pay my respects. He was my dearest friend after all.”


Lena bit the inside of her cheek as she weighed his question. Of course, it was alright for him to go. Her only hesitancy was in wanting to go with him. She still craved to go with him; to hold Edwin’s hand…to do all that she hadn’t been able to do for Javelin.


Soren strolled back to the table and gestured to the book. “There’s enough to review for the day. While I’m away, perhaps you can go over the sounds of the letters for yourself. I simply ask that you stay here…unseen for your own safety.”


The words sent a shudder down her spine, but she understood. Lord Jarl was still looking for her.


“Yes,” she replied.


He crossed the space of the room to the door, where his jacket was hung on a wooden peg on the wall. As he slid his arms through the worn, brown coat, Lena noticed the few patches he must have sewn on himself. After he buttoned the two rows of buttons, Soren adjusted the folds of the fabric to lay perfectly against his shoulders.


“I shouldn’t be very long,” he promised. “I’ll lock up the shop behind me.”


As he pulled the door closed behind him, Lena felt an emptiness she had only experienced on the night of her transformation, the day of her brother’s death. She was once again alone. This time, her only remaining friend…was Soren. Her eyes darted to the painting on the wall, to the portrait of his mother. She knew she still needed to tell him the truth, to tell him of his mother and her survival beneath the waves of the sea. Her grey eyes bore through the painting, holding Lena’s tentative gaze.


“Kaereste…” The sound of the woman’s voice echoed in her ears. The same name the merrow woman had called her when she had first met her; the name that somehow still rang out over the crashing waves of the sea now and again. Lena wanted to tell Soren about his mother, and her encounter with her, but the fear of his reaction caused her pause.


Lena stood and slowly crossed the room, filling the distance between her and the looming painting; she somehow felt more connected to her than before. Squeezing her eyes closed, Lena tried to remember any sort of telling detail—the color of her fin, the sound of her voice, the color of her hair…anything that she could someday share with him. Lena released a sigh as she grazed her fingers softly over the corner of the thick frame. After a moment, she turned and returned to the table with her book full of confusing letters. Lena longed for the knowledge in knowing how to read the confusing letters as soon as possible; if it meant protecting the sea, her people…


Suddenly, a loud pounding against the main doors of the Bror Boghandel drew Lena’s attention away from the opened book. The wooden door rattled against the frame as each new hit echoed through the structure.


“Master Emil!” a deep, gruff voice called, continuing to pound on the door. “Master Emil, open up!”


Lena stood frozen in place, waiting to hear if the man on the other side of the door would disappear. Soren had said he’d lock up behind him. Holding her breath, she heard the door rattle once more.


Thump. Thump. Thump.


“Master Emil!”


Lena was almost sure the door echoed in tune with her own heartbeat as she gripped the table nervously. The inn was only over the hill, just beyond the village. It surely wouldn’t take him very long to travel to the inn, pay his respects, and return? Maybe the visitor would give up after a moment and leave?


She held her breath, waiting, willing herself to stand still. In return, there was nothing but the sound of her own heart in her ears.


Just as she released the puff of air and turned her attention back to the book, the sound of the door being thrown open resonated throughout the entire shop. Lena jumped and moved as quickly and quietly as she could to Soren’s chamber door. Who could it be?


Her chin trembled in fear. She pressed her ear against the wood. From the other side, she could hear muffled shuffling.


“Master Emil!” the gruff voice called again. “I mus’ speak with ye! Are ye here?”


Lena’s eyes darted around the room, looking for something—anything—to protect herself with. Her gaze landed on the large piece of obsidian, sitting on one of the shelves. She crossed the room, walking on the tips of her shoes to remain quiet, and took the stone from the shelf. Staring at the door, Lena braced herself for whoever was about to come through. Suddenly, the pounding started on the door in front of her; the motion caused the wood to shake in its frame. Lena squeezed her eyes shut and held her breath, lifting the rock a little higher over her head.


“Master Emil…”


The door swung open to reveal a familiar, gruff-looking man from the village; the very one that had chased her when she first came looking for Soren. He was dressed in soiled, dirty clothing; his shirt nearly yellow with stains, while his trousers were black and worn with holes.


“You,” he said darkly, his eyes narrowed as he gazed at her. “I know ye…an’ ye know me… Jepsen.”


Lena gripped the piece of obsidian harder, nodding with a jerk of her chin.


“W-what are you doing here?” she demanded angrily. “You can’t just…barge in.”


“Aye, I apologize, lass…” His dark eyes darted around the room as his brow raised curiously. “I be’in lookin’ for Master Emil.”


Lena tried to hide the trembling in her hands from continuing to hold the obsidian so tightly. “Isn’ the master Emil ‘ere, lass?” he asked at her silence, shaking his head. “Ye can put down the stone, lass…you’ll not trouble me ‘ith such a ‘hing.”


Lena remained still, watching him as she shook her head. The sinking twist of her stomach urged her not to give into his request; she didn’t trust him. “You can come back when he’s returned.”


“Aye, I could…” he started and took a step forward more into the room. “But I’d ratha wai’ for him ‘ere. ‘Tis important.”


Lena tilted her chin toward the door as her fingers trembled against the heavy weight of the stone. “Stop, stay where you are.”


Jepsen lifted his hands with an amused chuckle. “T’will not be me who ‘urts ye, lassie.”


“Why are you here?”


“Edwin Wyatt. I came ‘ere to tell ‘im of the news. T’was a tru’ crim.’ God res’ his soul.”


“Soren already knows of the news,” she confessed, hoping it would lead to Jepsen leaving. “He’s there at the inn now.”


Her hand began to tremble underneath the weight of the stone, and slowly, she began to lower the rock to the height of her shoulders.


“Aye, so he kno’s then,” Jepsen replied, sliding a large hand through his matted hair. His pained eyes lowered to the ground, and he shook his head. “Tru’ sham’ in’nit?”


“Yes,” she agreed, nodding. Lena bit the inside of her cheek, trying to suppress her own unshed tears. Closing her eyes for only a moment, she could see Edwin, wrapped in a warm, woolen blanket, sitting by the open window of his room, smiling just as he had the first time they’d met. “You have a special sort of light that I can see in my darkness. Everyone has a sort of glow, a shadow sometimes. But you, lass. Yours is the brightest soul I’ve ever seen.” Another pang of grief filled her chest at the recall of his words. She could still see the light in his own eyes, as his trembling aged hands held hers.


Edwin, whose eyes expressed the same joy once seen in her own father’s eyes. Her father who would wait for her by the door, much like Edwin, and would smile brightly at the sound of her calling his name. Each time she brought home a sack of crabs, he’d murmur, “What luck you’ve had, min pige. Where would we be without you?”


“Even ‘ore, the Wyatt boy is missin’…” Jepsen interrupted, drawing her away from her thoughts.


“Missing?” Lena’s eyebrows furrowed. “You mean Jace? Jace is missing?”


“Aye. No’ one ‘as seen ‘im. Not at the inn, not in ‘he village…”


“He’s with Lord Jarl now. He lives with him at his manor,” she explained. “Jace became Lord Jarl’s apprentice.”


As Jepsen lifted his fingers to stroke his curly beard, his grey gaze turned curiously to her.


“An’ why ye bein’ here, and not there with ta misses? Dona ye live with ta Wyatt’s?”


Lena could feel her face grow warm, and she tried to think quickly of what to say. Lowering the piece of obsidian onto the table beside her, she bit her bottom lip.


“I came here earlier this morning to tell Soren Emil the news…”


“And he lef’ ye here?”


“I asked to stay,” she quickly replied, “just for the morning. It’s been…”


Jepsen nodded, raising his brow before she could finish her explanation. “Aye, he was a gu’d man. He’ll be missed.” Jepsen eyed the door behind him for a moment, as though he were trying to decide if he should leave. Lena prayed silently that he would.


“I ‘ave custom’ers waitin’, ” he explained with a gesture back to the door with his hand. “W’en he comes, be tellin’ mister Emil I called on ‘im.”


“I will,” she murmured breathlessly, relief filling her as he moved toward the door. What would Soren do when he’d seen what Jepsen had done to the lock on the main door?


He paused only a moment before turning back to glance at her; his grey eyes meeting her gaze.


“Take care, lassie,” he said softly. “‘he lord n’ master ain’ a nice fello’. Too late fer ta Wyatt boy, but…jus’ take care.”


His words sent a shiver down the length of her spine. Of course, Lord Jarl had a reputation for not being a good man in the village. Before Lena could manage another word, Jepsen slipped back out to the main door of the Bror Boghandel. Lena only followed after when she was sure he was gone. As she approached the broken door, she tried to adjust the lock the best she could with her trembling fingers.


From just beyond the shore and shadows of the village, the sea called for her; she could feel it yearning for her to return to its depths. Home.


Pressing her back against the wood panels of the broken door, she let out a gasp of air and chose to ignore the tug toward the sea; it would only lead to heartache and pain.

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